Dissolving Into Knowing

Dissolving Into Knowing
by Keith

I became the center of a consciousness that no longer had anything to do with my body except for my breathing. A vibrant, blissful energy engulfed every part of my body and being, melting it away, allowing my consciousness to unfold and expand into a place that felt like home; a place I had been to a thousand times before, but had nothing whatsoever to do with the material world we know. It consisted only of unfolding layers of consciousness that unfolded deeper and deeper the more I relaxed, cleared consciousness, and simply let go. It's a vivid sensation of non-locality and constant expansion: I am all places at once and can see with eyes that have nothing to do with my physical eyes; a place of pure energy, flowing, unfolding, cascading, constantly moving, and all-enveloping. Even as fear creeps in because of my human failings, I have learned to embrace it, which continues the unfolding into even more tangible and expansive layers. I can sense energies all around me that always assure me to not be afraid, explaining that this is a good place, a beautiful, safe and loving place, a place that I have always known and have been a part of since the beginning of time.

This undeniably profoundly religious experience is one that I can repeat whenever I take the time and effort to enter that state of deep meditation with my plant ally; Salvia divinorum. This sacred altered state of consciousness takes practice, discipline, and an immense amount of patience, but once I reach that place and the Salvia takes hold, it instantly releases me into the void; to that non-body state of pure energy, love, and joy that I know is my direct contact with the Divine, with my own Creator, with the origin of the Universe, and connection to the mass consciousness that connects all of us.

To describe the sensations in a physical way: sometimes it feels as though I consist of thin, crystal-like layers that constantly radiate outward from me like pages flipping in a book, as everything gently moves through a liquid space like a canoe on a stream, effortlessly, with the ability to concentrate on one or all of these expanding points simultaneously while the entire space i am in expands outwards.

Tangible energy wraps itself delicately around my thoughts and bathes them in something that I forget is always there. This place of remembering is only a place of knowing. Everything that seemed relevant, if even the most awake and self-aware "I" thought was relevant, becomes completely irrelevant. No judgment passes; it simply couldn’t. In this moment, the power of my human frame exists for its ability to connect with my Divine. What sumptuous treats these endless visions are; they engage me in a joyous dance, ecstatic to have found my home once again while still in this temporary human and fragile frame. Every connection discovered is another chance for my Divine to witness itself, with thoughts so tangible, that they can equally create and destroy everything that they have imagined to be in an instant. Just when I think I know, I forget. Just when I think the words have come, they disappear. This is the place I hope everyone knows, the place I wish everyone knew, this is the place I wish words could fully explain. Truly, this is a place I want everyone to know as intimately as I have known it because it's a place of true love, of infinite wisdom, of endless patience, as well as a never-changing and infinitely changing everything.

We all have this power inside us; it's just been indoctrinated out of us. Most of us have been led to believe that we're far less than all we are. I know God. I feel I know God more intimately than many who claim to know God. But, I also believe that we all have the same gift buried deep within our genetic coding, and that entheogens, teacher plants, and psychedelics help us to unlock that potential when approached and treated with the sacred respect they require.